Live in the moment.
This has become the theme of the day.
I heard it earlier in the context of when one is developing feelings for another; later on, it became an important topic in two additional relationship conversations.
There is this idea that life is best lived “in the moment.”
Going with the flow.
Riding the wave.
Just living and seeing how that life plays out.
Many people live by this theory. In many ways, so do I.
For the most part, I’m quite content with living in the moment. Being with my thoughts, as they are, as they come. Doing whatever I feel like, whenever the feeling comes to me. I’ve always been a healthy combination of spontaneous and a plan maker. In living this way, I’ve become much more aware of what I can and cannot control and I’m comfortable with the idea that everything happens for a reason.
Live in the moment.
I’ve been thinking about that all day now. It’s a piece of advice that I’ve given to many myself.
Live in the moment.
Whatever will be, will be.
But today, after all these conversations, I’ve realized why that theory cannot apply to all things. Why “living in the moment” may also require some planning.
The initial comment was made as part of a larger conversation. Over the last few months, two people have been getting to know each other. A professional relationship turned into random text conversations…which turned into larger conversations…which turned into spending more time together in various settings, both personally and professionally…which turned into a friendship…which turned into a physical relationship. The entire relationship was built and based on a casual, “live in the moment” vibe. It was perfect for their personalities, it was perfect for their situation. This was different for her though, she was used to getting bored easily. The live in the moment agreement worked best because it allowed for an easy escape when she was no longer interested. But the more she got to know him, the more she wanted to. The more time she spent with him, the more she enjoyed his company. The more she enjoyed his company, the more she realized she was developing feelings for him. The stronger the feelings, the more she started to search for a definition.
A definition. All of a sudden, the casual became complicated. She could accept any definition, except the unknown. She caught herself here.
She wondered what they were doing. What he felt. IF he felt. She realized that she allowed her guard down prematurely. She couldn’t even remember doing it, uncertain if it had ever actually been up with him in the first place. Here she was though, at a very pivotal point in this relationship. She was safe here.
If they were to continue just being friends, she could do that.
If they were to continue just being casually physical, she could do that.
If they were to continue being simply professional, she could do that.
What she couldn’t do, was allow her feelings to grow if they weren’t on the same page.
So the advice given to her was simple, “live in the moment.”
I heard this and I thought about it.
I thought about my own life and what I’ve been able to accomplish. I thought about the times I’ve lived in the moment and how much fun I had doing that. So many amazing memories and wonderful stories in 34 years.
Then I thought about the times I planned decisions. I thought about how much success I gained from doing that. So many amazing memories and wonderful stories in 34 years.
Love, it itself, is the most spontaneous thing in the world. You absolutely cannot control who you have feelings for. You love when you don’t expect to. You love who you don’t expect to. You can’t plan feelings, you can’t force feelings. They just happen, whenever and however they do.
Love lives in the moment.
But sometimes you have feelings for someone you shouldn’t have feelings for. Some people are unavailable; either already in a relationship or unavailable in various other ways. You don’t develop feelings for someone, find out they are in a relationship and then continue to just live in the moment. No. You would accept that it’s not the one and you would work out those feelings and move on.
Some people just don’t want the same things as you. If one person is carrying multiple casual relationships and the other one wants to focus on seeing where this one could go, it’s probably a good time to walk away.
So, living in the moment is incredibly important in relationships, particularly as they continue to develop. Having a basic definition is equally important.
I don’t mean a definition by way of labels. It’s not a “you’re my boyfriend and I’m your girlfriend” situation. It simply means having a mutual understanding. A “I’m not seeing anyone else, you’re not seeing anyone else, let’s just see where this goes.” Or a “I’m actually only interested in a casual physical relationship with no strings attached.” Or a “I don’t have feelings for you and I prefer to just be friends.”
This way, you can decide how to proceed and if you really want to proceed in that direction. Once a basic definition is established, living in the moment makes sense.
Two other conversations happened after that. Two different situations where I may have given the simple advice of “just live in the moment, see where things go.” I caught myself though. Relationships are complex.
There is no simple advice when dealing with feelings.